Def Poetry #5

I stagger back in awe.

Simple matters stacked with withdrawal symptoms.

I'm worried I will fall.

Tripped over tied shoelaces

Left up into dried new places

Parched.

For a cool cool glass of rationality

I sit dejected from my peers.

Never ejectin that tape that got me here

introspection rejects rather than accepts my fears

and I lay to wast and suspect the coming years

of falling short.

I've not yet lost it

But negative thoughts progress like a leaky faucet

Drip, after drip.

Into the wash basin of mind,

a battle that finds me exhausted.

Tired but not beaten

For my third eye has been peekin

This whole time and I'm done eating

my words and self doubts

helpless to nothing i resolve to shout!

From the top of my lungs

I've hung myself on the top shelf

and as this self portrait grows complete

I pray thanks for the help.

For each personality impacts me personally

and this realization has been quite uplifting-

sifting through interactions

understand internalized reactions

that alter my preconceived actions

I'm done with these negative distractions.

Get the suitcase darlin, and start packin.

For this train is leaving the station,

all aboard and tickets please

this rickety self conception

hypocrisy to the outward perception

has left me to my own deceptions

But those thoughts are left waiting

as i ride this train to another destination

of understanding.

To perceive and believe are two separate things.

Reality checks in makes you come clean

wrecks in to take your dreams.

So you have to turn the two into one

cut the separation put faith in the sun

that it will rise again

so you can size up the life you're in

and begin again

to get your dreams back.

If you focus hard enough the whole world will conspire to help you.

So they say.

But this conspiracy theory of determination

leaves me to perspire in aspiration

to solve these equations,

even when I'm met with this frustrations

I don't regret or forget the tribulation

but accept and let in the explanation

that it's okay.

That it is okay.

Things may become great

but while we wait

know that it will never really be all that bad

what you have will be okay.